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You are...(looks) :: +Memory :: Tell a Friend :: Reply so i like how i left my house last night at 6:11pm and got home at 4:07am without stopping anywhere.
dont you love driving 10 hours straight. so last night was not such a good night; the end.
since my epifany the other day, life hasnt been so bad. im actually having fun and like not stressed. well of course i am, but not to the extent that i use to be. my dad moved out, so im home <3 it feels so good to sleep in my own bed after two months. and i talk to him once a day, so like thats good. hes buying his own place saturday, or hes already bought it and hes moving in saturday, im not sure. he wants to do breakfast on sunday, but i dont think i want too so i told him i was busy or that id get back to him. i forget. but i also got a job! at rosewood, the nursing home. itll be fun though because julie bryan danny steve holy danielle.. like everyone works there, haha i start monday <3 and i switched out of my history class and because of it i needed to switch my english period so now i have fifth period history with ingrao and kaylas in that class, which is cool cause ive never had a class with her but akward as hell cause i have nothing to say to her. ive changed so much since we were friends that its just akward. haha but i figure whatever. and then i have sixth period english with merril and abbie and kevin and mia and soo many people are in that class. i love the people, but the teachers voice puts me right to sleep.
aah, college stuff is flying at me through the mail and its stressing me out like crazy. but like i said i could be more stressed out. so im fine, lol its exciting but overwhelming cause like i want to go to college and i want to get out of peabody and everything. but its coming sooner then expected. and .. BYEE haha alright, so someway somehow ive had a completely turn around with my life. it probably wont last long but im soaking in every second of it. im just really happy right now. i couldnt tell you why, but i am. things just are looking really good, well not in all aspects but like wow. i dont understand it, nothing inparticular happened. im just like moved on from shit, like a bunch of shit. like my parents, they can deal with their own shit and im going to deal with mine the way im going to deal with it. they havent acted like parents so im not going to treat them as such. like i love them both but i have to focus on me. and then with joe, fuck it. like seriously i dont need the extra stress from him, i dont want it. he isnt worth it, he is just another guy. anyways, christ im only in highschool. i have so much mroe ahead of me. i should stop caring so much about guys, at this stage in highschool it either ends in heartbreak, or well actually only heartbreak. whether it be yours that is breaking or theirs. but in my case its always mine. and i love my friends, i need to stop being so stressed about like life. aaah, im only sixteen. im going to start enjoying it, i shouldnt be stressed. lifes really not that hard. and it can be really fun, all you need is optimism. seriously, thats all it takes. if you look at the good side to everything aspect in life, everything will be alright. and im so thankful that i learned that today. i dont know how or when i learned it today between six am and now, but i did and i just, i feel like a completely new person. :)
drunk dialing sucks. we never hung out.
figures he never even called. im done; i hope at least. so i called joe last night while i was at the fair and just left him a msg saying basically i give up because he's ignoring me and i have no clue why but if he wanted to talk he could always give me a call.
not ten minutes after i left that message he called me. he was like "im not trying to ignore you" and i was like "okay" and he goes "its just everytime you try and talk to me you want to talk about us and i dont want to talk about us" so i was like "we dont have to" and he goes "okay great" ugh, he makes me so mad. but i cant help but like him as much as i do. how am i suppose to know what the fuck is going on unless we talk about him. he just needs to give me straight answers. so then i asked if he wanted to hang out before he went back to school and he was like "yeah, i do. but i have to see my family and stuff too" so i dont know what the hell that means. whatever, we'll see. |